Raw

This past weekend I saw the movie Blue Valentine. ugh. I mean, it was good. Anything that produces a strong reaction after viewing, has to be good. But I had to go to my friends house to pick up some camping gear. I screamed very, very loudly in my car on the way there. I cried on her living room floor very hard. and screamed some more. I was just angry. ugh. Watch this movie if you really feel you have to, if you don't feel that strongly- save yourself the torment.
Why was I screaming? Why was I crying? Something about everything being dumb and hopeless...Something about love being an emotion and not a commitment... I can't even really say.

I needed the camping gear, though, because I spent the night at my place of work this weekend, and while I have a tent and sleeping bag, I needed a tarp and something squishy to sleep on. I work about an hour from where I live on a family farm, doing farm stuff, keeping some hogs, chickens, and turkeys happy and healthy. This sounds like sunshine, doesn't it? It is. But, it is also exhausting. My sleeping bag wasn't warm enough so by the time 5am rolled around again, getting up to start the day felt like Goliath... and I had misplaced by slingshot. Somehow I managed, but not before I ran over the waterhose with the riding mower (this thing is a rusted beast from like the I don't even know. This is how to control the speed
yea, that is a turtle icon for slow and a hare icon for fast...)

Now, it is exam week. I am studying art history like a feign.
These are my two favorite paintings that I have to know:
1.) The Little Street by Vemeer in 1657. Dutch Baroque


2.) The Death of Marat by David in 1793. French Neoclassicism


I really feel mesmerized by both of these. They are both so beautiful and intimate.


Also, I have decided that I am going to learn how to play the drums. I'm going to just learn. Soon. Maybe in a year, I can join a really poopy band, and have some fun.


what instrument would you love to have instant knowledge of? (p.s. have you heard of the kora?)